Not thinking the word “hate” is something that I do most of the time. Since “hate” is not a subject that comes up in my life, I have no reason to think or use the word. Nor do I use the word instead of “dislike”. The few times that “hate” did enter my thoughts were usually when I read certain titles. For me, calling a movie “10 Things I Hate ( Read more... )

Because of my brain injury, I have little impulse control. When I see something I want, I focus on the object until I get it. This has created problems for me ( Read more... )

Rage comes when we neglect any of these steps. Not feeling or acknowledging it allows us to continue to be violated, and turn our anger inward. Inappropriate expressions such as beating someone who called us a name or even pounding pillows only keeps us in arousal mode. If we do not release the anger, we nurse grudges and make our lives ( Read more... )

Because of my brain injury, I have little memory of things in my life that caused a deep rage. However, I was able to reconstruct one incident from my past. As I recalled the incident, I could feel the bile rise up in me ( Read more... )

This is another entry in the Negative Energy series. There are many aspects to nature, some nice, some not-so-nice. But they are what makes nature tick ( Read more... )

As a Roman Pagan, my collection of things for magical protection includes various charms. For example, I carry a Roman coin embossed with geese. These birds of Juno’s temple warned the Romans of the impending attack of the Gauls on Rome. For me, They are warders against bad things.

For the protection of my home, I ask the House Lars to guard us. In ( Read more... )

As a Roman Pagan, doing magic is not a part of my beliefs. We do not put spells on people. However, people do write defixiones to ask the Gods of the Underworld to right the wrongs done to them in return for offerings. Also, we do carry charms of protection.

How do I determine that “someone is really out to get me.”? Where does paranoia and delusion ( Read more... )

After noting my conversations for the past week, I realized that the hot spot for many arguments of our family is the computer. When I am frustrated with it, I often lash out at my family members. For example, one day my son quietly asked me if he could use the computer for his college work. Irritated at being interrupted, I screamed at him. ( Read more... )

Divination is the magical skill that I am focused on improving. Currently, I am learning how to divine as the ancient Romans did. Lightening strikes and thunderstorms were signs from the various Gods, but usually from Jupiter, the Ruler of the Gods. But, birds such as eagles, hawks, and vultures were also Jupiter’s signs of good will. Meanwhile ( Read more... )